Worried about my update and finding inner child

Hi, my name is Shayla. I’m very excited to be invited into the secret society meetings and this is my first secret meeting on level one and many more to come also I’m waiting for the next secret meetings for level two and upper levels and I feels like I’m missing my secret metting because I’ve not got a updates of the next meetings of every 33 days of a month and I’m getting worried that I’m way behide my secret meetings. Hi, Mark Hamiltion. I have a couple questions to ask you. How can I find my Friday Night Essence because I have not found it yet can you help me? I need help with making communication and connecting with my inner child? How can we make our achievements or goals in the society that we’re living today but we was supposed to be living onto the prime laws? Is that possible to make our lives from stagnation into becoming the person we were meant to be?