wealth and happiness

I think I loss my first thought hitting the wrong button. Where do I begin?? My exposure to Neothink was either 1995 within the last 18 years and then 2013 I received my first letter. The first time was a very large bluish or grayish book with a message to the reader that scared me which I put it away only to forget. Then I received my first letter 2013,I thought this is unreal. Question is should I embrak this time or not?? Yes, I must make the first steps to what have been holding me back. The more I read the more I began to see my childhood memories. I was happy with the insight or foresight I felt I had doing that time. I was always trying to encourage other to see the future of suceess from what we can create for each other and for mankind. I was different and could not share my insight because of fear what others would say or do. Ideas I kept to myself. I looking forward to our meetings. Thank you Mark. Puzzles are coming together for me. Sincerely, Me myself and I.