Walking when I want to RUN!!!

I am having difficulity describing the feelings that you, the three heirloom packages and now these secret meetings have brought to me. I have always been a very emotional male, even as a child, and though I have been told that I have a knack for creative writing, I always have a hard time getting started so please be patient with me. I have read all three heirloom packages and have recieved my fourth book (NEOTHINK BY Frank R. W.) but I have not yet begun its journey. I have recently moved and got a late start on my third heirloom package (I was so excited to order my third heirloom package I neglected to fill out the change of address on its order form and had to wait until it was forwarded through the anticivilizations antiquated postal service)and wanted to get started with my secret meetings as soon as I finished my third heirloom package, which I finished late last night. On a side note, I would like to take a minute here to express my greatest gratitude and give a “Thank you” to your order fulfillment department for not abreviating my first name, Captain. I have recieved many mailings that abreviate it because they believe it is a title and not my given name, which it is. Yes there is a story behind my name, however I am not sure this is the approperate time and place for its divulgence. I have had a difficult time discovering (or maybe just believing in) my “Friday Night Essence” and I am going to review “Vision One”, “Vision Two” and the “Vision Climax” as sugessted in the meeting. I was relieved that this difficulty was not mine alone. I also am eager to go to the secret society web sight and review its context. First let me explain my comment about having difficulity “Believing in” my “Friday-Night-Essence”. I was facinated by the “Power Thinking” concept initially described in my first heirloom package. Sometime while reading the second heirloom package I gave it a try and was a little suprized, and probably more startled, at what I saw in my minds eye. I am an automotive technician and have always felt that I should open my own shop so I can reap the rewards of my own labor instead of filling the pockets of my anticivilation employers. This is what I was tring to envision in my minds eye when suddenly the vision changed and instead I saw myself as President of the United States. I then had the uncanny urge, I mean a real deep desire, to be the “Twelve Visions Party’s” presidential canadite. I even envisioned a way of possibly achiveing the “split run” in government by starting at the state level. Replacing state Governors with “Twelve Vision Party’s” canidates, starting with the states with the most presidential electoral votes, would give the “Twelve Visions Party” a way to show the populus that our way is the one and only way to achieve health, wealth, happiness and peace for all, even the poor. Now, I have not been a very political guy or even a socially active guy, and this sudden change of the picture in my minds eye scared and confused me. However, I dismissed what I saw in my minds eye almost as soon as I envisioned it and attributed it to being caught up in the moment of reading my heirloom packages and assumed that this was a common feeling due to the emotional nature of the heirloom packages. Then after Mr. Hamilton answered the last of the questions of the level one meeting and stated that he didn’t usually discuss the “Church of God-Man” and its atributes with his level one apprentices, it was as if he gave this extra content for me personally and the possibility opened itself up to me again. This is where I need to “walk” when I want to “run” as described in the level one meeting. Now I am feeling a little embarrassed about my confessions, or is it the mysticisms of the anticivilation that is making me feel such embarrassment? Reguardless, I would like more information on becoming a local Neothink Society organizer. This will allow me to “walk” into the organizational aspects of the Secret Society so I can become the value creator I was always ment to be.

Thank-You
Captain Brewer