Trying to Keep Up

The one thing I do often when trying to read the packages is fall asleep. It frustrates me a great deal. I place a lot of pressure on myself to stay on schedule. I am currently working 40 hours a week, going to school online, trying to keep up with my metaphysical studies, and keep up with studying the packages. I try not to feel like a failure, but I do. In addition, I fear being left behind. The first meeting placed me in a mental state of knowing I can do this. It told me that I really need to better manage my time. I know I am on my way to transforming my life, I just want to know a better way to connect with the different speeds of how soon, how slow, how fast, and how prepared I have to be, so that I do not miss out on anything.

I am nowhere near finishing any of the books, but I do not want to rush through any of them, and miss the indepth points.

Please help me. I need your wisdom to make order of my chaos.