Meeting One/Complicated Life/Working Neothink Into Life

I am working on trying to get a career or job that would let me use the self-leader skills. A lot of the Neothink information within the books are about self change for my life completely and how I can integrate it within my work to start the change of becoming wealthy/happy. My problem is finding the job that I am able to use these Neothink skills in. I am at that crossroads of either never getting that opportunity, having to wait til May 2014 to finish my Associates degree program to expand the job search, and having to find a second job to have some small security in my life of single parenting. I am stuck, but I have faith in Neothink. With everything needing money and me having to struggle to get it with working all these temporary jobs and still not finding a permanent job to feel some job security I do not know if I am going to make it throughout my first year. I am going through a lot and am working very diligently to get things in order. I am a magnet of bad luck and things happening at the wrong time, always. I am a giving, loving, kind, smart individual that just can not get a break in life. I am starting to not be as excited about bettering my life because all I see is me being stuck in stagnation traps even though I see the truth/ugliness. I am trying to stay in control but it is getting to me after 9 years. I am getting to a point of not believing in anything anymore because I have nothing to look up too. Everyone I grew up around or even be around is benefiting in life greatly and I am left in the dark steady working at things, but steady getting knocked back even more all at once. Things take time, but I do not know if I am going to last the time frame. Each step seems to be the same and starting to not interest me but I keep making myself go through the process. WHY? There is no way for me to make the Neothink techniques integrated into my stagnation trap of a life that I am forever trying to break from everyday. I know this is considered process but I am stuck in the same cycle. HELP!!!! I am losing my composure.