Level 1/ Stagnation / Friday Night Essence

Stagnation: As we have all experienced at one time or another, the quality of stagnation in our life experience, I know for myself it’s not been easy to change my course that has been dealt to me in life. I do get that at times it is inevitable that we experience various circumstances and situations in order to learn,grow, and evolve to our highest good. It’s as if (it)ie life force, is guiding me, not me guiding it. It’s as if I’m being made all over again. Or simply, rediscovering the deepest core part of myself that has been inherent since my inception into this world.
Through reading and understanding your material of value creation,and continued deliberate step by step implementation of the conscious practice of curiosity and integration gives me the internal freedom to move forward positively with another “to do system” that works in an oppressive society. I’ve never been confined to a box, so to speak, mentally and or creatively until the mounting pressures of the world came pounding on my door and guess what, I opened it only to find more responsibility which is a part of the process of drowning in a predictable life of security in turn has thwarted much of my innate capacity to create freely. I know what my strengthens are, but like a bird my wings bound to it[s side for quite a while. Trust me, I’ve not forgotten how to fly,just forced to subordinate my inner child, if you will. There are times when the child like sparks of freedom and intelligence rise up and appears, but then put out by those that mean me no good. However; my goal is for my inner child to stay in the for front of my mind there for igniting my life to a supreme level of manifested self in order to full-fill my destiny in life, which is to help myself in order to help others through puzzling together my Friday Night Essence and actualizing it. Speaking of the FNE, I began re living that practice of exploration and visualizing my future by tapping into my inner life of creativity, However; I took sick for quite some time which halted my progression not to mention opposing forces which attributed to my illness. However; I am know back in the sattle again. I want to also say thank Mark you for your acknowledgment and belief in me! As I respect your life work and books of knowledge, I look forward to the progression we will make together as I study your principles. After saying all this my question has been answered: “Just stay the course and continued to focused on creating value and wealth in something that I deem my purpose.
However; keeping my energy harnessed to dispense when necessary is difficult at times. What could I do when I reach a stalemate in productivity when negative forces haven’t been eradicated from the atmosphere or one’s immediate environment that exist in everyday life which then zaps the power surge that is coming through that keeps the flow of creativity going? Is it just that simple to stay FOCUSED. I know for myself that is something I’m dutifully working on. Mark would you kindly respond?