just finsihed first meeting

Mark,

I just finished the first meeting. I am not quite finished with all the readings but will finish them shortly. I have gone through a process on my way to enlightenment. While I am excited about my future, I have gone through feelings of even more frustration now that I am aware of being stuck in certain areas of life. I am guessing this frustration will turn to fuel but knowing that my prior conditioning is a battle, I am constantly thinking about the “anticivilization” that is a part of me. I am wanting to break out but also want to release this negativity and anger I feel about my prior conditioning. I guess I need to trust this process and know I will slowly leave that old life. I sometimes struggle with being patient. I guess I am looking for reassurance that these feelings are normal. Thanks