first timer

Hi…I am not sure where to begin…I feel like I have come in to big discovery in the middle part of which I have already experienced most of but have no idea where everyone is at or where they are gong because of all the terminology…terms and so on that everyone uses is so different from where I come from…back about twenty years ago I started playing at work and got down into the nitty gritty of my job and started having fun being there and doing what I was supposed to…I got information no one else in my group was williny to look for in order to make the job easier so I became the qestion/answer person. When new things and products were being sold and we needed to give out information we did not have yet because other groups that were supposed to give us that info hadn’t done their work telling me they had not been given the info they needed…I wwould have to wait for them to get their stuff together for us and then they would tell me. I would be given the assignment to write a method and proceedure and training in order to progress in my job that the others were also doing…when transferred to next group I had only been there doing my job for three months I had to create new filling systems…write up mothods and proceedures and train so I could move on to the other half the job I was suppoesed to be at…and situations kept repeating until is reach top paying job and got as far as allowed in the company without being a supervisor…I think I have been playing as an adult with my jobs for quite some time now…although I am retired and enjoying being gone from the (monsters…supers) and playing at my own games…I like to give my creations away and or share them with others with paybacks not recognized as monitary???it gives me great joy to share in this way…I have three or four new projects I am starting to learn and share and having a great time at it…I am not sure all the terms and technical things the society implies on all this…I have also been working on relations with my five sisters and three brothers(adoped)all of whom I love very dearly yet have problems enjoying at times. I have made a lot of progess with three of the sisters…the brotheres are not around much(their choice)and I remain still frustrated because I have WAIT for them to decide to be a part of it all because no matter how hard I work it is their choice to change or learn or want to join in my fun….I enjoy very much all this new and I am not so sure about this being truths…knowing I must keep an opened mind to find out and sort it all out…I keep getting this creepy feeling this is just another type of illusion that pass on by like most everything else I hope is true but I am just going to have to be patiently waiting to see what happens in the future seemingly a fantasy. Thank you for a new fantasy and ideas that help make my life more different than I should have ever hoped for.