Error! I’m repeating my comments here from Level 01 meeting

Sorry, I was confused and had this written on Level 01 meeting

Dear Mr. Hamilton,
I just read part 2 on Level 01 here and about 1/4 of the Neothink book (couldn’t concentrate anymore)… honestly, I feel rusty after so many years of frustrations. I find myself thinking how super-productive I was and without interference from anyone before that turning point in 1989. I used to have two jobs and running a business at the same time… too ambitious to allow anyone to stop me. I also was attending a full-time private Design school at FIDM in Los Angeles, commuting 4 hours a day while still attending to a husband and two young children (now ‘ex’).
I can say that I knew then how to power-think and think hard those days cause I had to challenge myself daily to come up with at least 100 original fashion design sketches in one sitting, while also pattern-drafting and mass-producing my originals to sell in mail-orders in a magazine at that time. I was a one-woman-player with no assistance but I always met deadlines. I was the highest score in the whole school in FIDM that year I attended.
Funny, how all these memories came back haunting me now after digesting all the information I’ve read in your book and being on this site… it’s like re-kindling a “love” and passion that I once had… as if I’m feeling that I’m about to strike again… real hard, yet cautious!!!
I have not really lost it completely cause, for over two decades I would still do some art work and designs, sometimes sell them in boutiques, amazon, but the passion was no longer present.
Why???
It’s not the same anymore after meeting those dangerous people who trespassed in my life (from 1989 onward), I lost that “Midas Touch” I once had and I was not making money the way I once had! It wasn’t because of me cause I was still the same person, but it was their influence and evil forces around to keep me poor. From then on, I didn’t meet sincere people anymore; places I did business with have shut down; people who believed in me have disappeared; everyone was trying to rip me off and taking away or destroying all my design tools, assets little by little… I felt everyone were conspiring against me (and there was no one to turn to), and so I spent many years trying to figure out where I’ve gone wrong (by learning the Universal Laws and some white magic)… who were responsible and to discover their weaknesses so I may beat them to the punch and keep them at bay from then on. It wasn’t easy, but I’m not about to quit cause I’m not there yet!
I know this is a mouthful, but I need to let you know where I stand and what I can contribute here. I have always been a value-creator, but I’ve also learned many dirty secrets in this world and in the spiritual realm due to my experience and determination. They’re all true and I’m not insane or anything (far from it). What I’ve learned is something that will benefit members here, especially those who have not been touched by Neo-tech yet.
It was God’s Divine Purpose that I had received that first letter from Neo-tech in 1998. I was struggling then trying to regain all that I lost from endless theft and conspiracy, but I still met some sincere people who would give me work for pay, but it wasn’t the same anymore and I wasn’t really getting paid for what I was worth… it was a total struggle for me to become independent again.

My question here is:
Maybe, this is not realistic but I’d try anyway…
In the past, I had always use my mind to get what I wanted. Whenever I needed a tool or something for my project, I would always find them within 24 to 48 hours wherever I go or even just staying put. Either I’d walk into a store or drive around town, and “there it is”! Or I would just stay home and someone would call or visit telling me they have such an item that I needed and I can have them. I mean, this happened all the time (no joke), and even if I’m cramming for some answers about a problem I had, something will always click and I’d get an answer without fail without telling anyone what I needed or what the problem was.
To make a long story short… I have been dreaming about a global project in which I know I can handle well. I built this project in my mind in 2006 (and still building) while I thought then I would get the funds for it, but lo and behold, I did started to get offers for funds without discussing this project to anyone. But, the moment the funds are discussed by email, by phone or some other means of physical communication, these criminals of my past start interfering in some devious ways where the funds get out of my reach or I’d somehow get ripped off! Yes, I’ll attract physically what I thought of in my mind, but the moment the physical conversation starts, the funds are no longer within my reach, as if these criminals of my past are monitoring everything I do, say, etc. as if every move I make are watched with suspicion… except my thoughts… my thoughts they cannot read. So where do I start so I can win (without those culprits) and earn this wealth I need to fund my project?