just finished level 1 meeting

Hi i am mike from avella pa just finished my level 1 meeting it did me well i liked the question about slowing down and making childs play with my children since they grow so fast i am a single father of 3 an djust spent thanksgiving and black friday together it was great but i miss my children every day of my life i have missed a tremendace time with my children due to living 2 hours away from them and also work i work as a coal miner i call my children every day since myself and there mother have spilt almost 4 years ago i kills me everyday knowing that they were taken away from me and i am missing most of the (precious moments) of there life they are 11,7 and 4 years old i see them when i get a day off or holidays (i dont get much time off due to the industry i am in) what kills me the most is what my ex has become and who she has become because of who she is with my 2 older children see but youngest has not to (he is to young) is there any way to get rid of this feeling that i have ifeel that my children are with the wrong parent and the (system)is a bunch of b.s what is it going to take. i know what is going on and so does other people what do i have to do? as i said i have tried before but the system is a bunch of b.s