I am very happy

I am very happy to be apart of this group and the meetings but why does everything have to be so hurry up, fast, fast, fast!!?? I get a letter that says you have 3 weeks to read this new book and then the very next week get a new letter to start these meetings. I cannot read that fast and have not yet found my “Friday Night Essence” I see now that I am not alone but with every new letter there is more money also to be sent. My income is very limited and may not be able to continue sending more money for more books and more website memberships. What can I do to stay a part of this Society if my income prevents my purchasing more books and such?