Advice

Hello,
I am a new member and I must say that this knowledge is right up my alley so to speak. I am very greatful and honored to be a member. I would like to tell you a little about myself first and then have a question. I am 52 years old and been divorced since 1999. I got married youg and know the responcibilities involved in raising a family. I built my own home for my family and love to create and explore new things. I know of deep love and affection for family and also have compassion for the human race. My oldest son – ( DANIEL was murdered on his 28th birthday in June of 2008. It was a great loss to me that I will never really get over – he was so smart and a real hands on type of person . Very mechanically inclined and could fix anything that he set his mind too – he also learned to formatt and build computers all on his own. getting back to my situation. I am currently working full time at my job of 33years and would love to quit and open up my time to make my own living here at home as I sell on Ebay and have a self sufficient farm with free gas. I also have 2 inventions that I want to persue and market for sale. I already was in process of developing one for market when daniel was killed and I had to get refund of the money invested to pay for the funeral cast and ather things. My problem is that I am financially tied down and this keeps me at my current job that eats up all my time. It is a small amount really but enough to keep my life tied up in this suppressed economy. if I could come up with only $20,00 dollars I could make enough at home to pay my house payment as I had to use my leverage to get money for construction. That would allow me to retire from my cuurent job and open up my time for creative thinking and market my inventions. They are very simplr yet practicle and people do need and would benifit from them and I also belive that they would really sell. Do you have any sugestions that may help me reach this goal. I am a very focused person with the impeccability and stamina to do what ever it takes – wired for 220 as they my friends say. I would like your advice on what my next move should be.
I will attending my second meeting soon and would have already joined the secret web site but at the moment I do not have the extra funds to do so becuase of the tight budget. Thank you -JD