When I first got the letter in the mail i was very excited and thought this may not be a real thing. Something inside me told me this is something you been waiting for to change your life around in a good way. I have all the books and i have not yet read all the books i have a hard time reading with three little girls and at night time when all is quiet i try reading and fall asleep. i have gone to the first meeting and feel i’m not every going to get the Friday night essence and feel very stressed out that i can’t read as fast to finish the books. I am not a religious or into politics but have a hard time thinking that there is nothing after we die! Also why did you pick me to join in your secret society i’m a stay at home mom with no college degree or business smarts?